Bineaz

As you read the title, I'm going to chill. I've been so lazy, I did not write much and good. I have to go out of blogspot and try a real blog out. I don't have money and almost no time, because of the school. I'll finish next year and then I have to see what will happen. But till then I'll probably am going to write something, so subscribe and stay tuned I guess? I had some plans for this summerholidays. But as I said I'm to lazy to write and to do research. I prepared some titles and pictures. Had some thoughts going. But not today. In my eyes I made it to long. I would not have believed myself to write and spend so much time in something that useless (Lets be honest). Follow me on my social media. Trust me you can find them somwhere in this blog and follow me. I'm going to post there sometimes.

I don't know about you but friends do not mean much for me. I hate having friends or being surrounded with people who like and appreciate me because that is not the case. That is what a friends means, someone who likes and appreciates you as a human and who does not want to harm you. Merriam Webster says, one attached to another by affection or esteem . I see myself as a very open person and I do enjoy helping others. The problem is that I'm very fast to lose. I'm not perfect neither you are, but that is not what I want. I want them to do the right thing or else they lose me. Guess what they are doing? They do so much wrong and that is the reason why I like to be on my own at least most of the time. I love to be different. Why is it even sexy to be the normal? No, I don't do things just to get attention neither do I appreciate changing myself for others. I just want to do what I want. Let me explaine. For excemple ripped jeans are in, I hate wearing them, I eve...

My body and me Luckily you don't know how I look. I often don't like my look because my body can't be compared to a models body. So it could be compared but it just would be stupid to do that. You lose time doing something which isn't important at all. Searching for a fitting model who could be compared with me. There was a time and I still do that where I compared myself . I often did look at bodyparts of others who were good looking and tried to see the similarities. Am I good looking aswell? Do I fit? I was trying to answer the question, whether my bodyparts have the same proportion, length or size. (By the way, I'm not talking about penises). I have to stop with that, because as I see it, it is not important to be like someone else. We all should except how we are. Thats the only and the best way. Sometimes, I just don't care what others thing about my appearance or my personality. Sometimes I just don't want them to be around me. Sometimes I care t...

An excemple of my daily life Im afraid of so many things. And I guess it helps to talk about them, just to get them out. Well I probably won't reach anyone and can't bring him or her to think of her fears as I'm going to do right now. Fears can save our lifes as I read in a very old online report . Like 2008. When Barack was our man and we didn't know what will approche us, I was nine years old at that time. Yes I know, we all were innocent and didn't know the bad things, we were just kids. Open and abel to learn and be interested in everything and anything. I miss this time. As I wrote the first sentence of this post I didn't think about fear of high or death. I more thought of being afraid to talk or to present his own opinion and with that to influence the way of his/her life. Our brain is trained to be abel to react and to make decisions. I was just thinkig "What is my problem right know" and what came into my mind is, that I can't...

Goals, read, write, learn? To sit down and write thinks down, which you want to achieve next year is helping a lot of people (me aswell) to coordinate there year/life. I will tell you about my perspektive. There are also many things that are in my mind and which I recently do much often. I'm already sorry but I'll talk about that To know what you want You have to decide what you really want to do. What is important for you? What is the biggest thing for you to achieve? Give yourself some time and think about this. To make a goal list it is important to write a proper list. Don't write to much, don't write to less. I saw a Video of TheGabbieShow which inspired me almoste a year ago to set a goallist here is the link:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGXsmQfaof8 You can buy your own little booklet where you write your goal list. For Excemple 1-10. Then you go and start working on them. One thing after the other you propably have mor then 1 year time to do it. T...